I just called Keith's house and talked to Ashlee. She was so sweet and said she missed me so much, that now I am just a bag of tears. Being away from home is so hard when you are this sick. I am so thankful Sherry is here, but even that is hard, as I feel I am putting her out. It is hard to be so dependent on people when you have always been so independent.
Also some days are filled with hope and others are , well just days of endurance, waiting for the next shoe to fall, I guess. I hope it is okay to get sad once in awhile...like when I haven't heard from a special friend for a few days, or when I get tired of seeing sooooo many afflicted with this disease, or just when the pain gets to me and I am tired. And this is a tired like none other. It goes to the very bone,
I finally felt well enough to have my second round of chemo yesterday and I've had two rounds of radiation this week. The Doc's have me on a nutrition pack that I carry around with me all day long, and I am sure it is helping me not be so sick.I also got to get out of this prison for awhile this morning and buy some new duds. I honestly do not know how to buy clothes for myself anymore, as I have lost so much weight, I am not sure what to wear. I can't help thinking I shouldn't spend very much...so it is hard.
Sorry, tonight is a downer night. I am tired, and I just want to give up the fight right now. I need to tuck myself into bed with a good prayer and things will look brighter tomorrow. Good night.
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
Homesick
Posted by EDK at 7:43 PM
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Ashlee came out my room crying her heart out because she missed you so much. Isnt it wonderful that they all have developed such a love for you. I feel so blessed to have you part of my life and to know that my children love you like non other. You are very close to our hearts. I told her that this was making you better and that you would be able to spend more time with us because you are taking extra time and care to get better. Nothing but the best for the best grandma in the whole world. We miss you a lot too. But dont let that be a downer. Think of how wonderful the reunion will be when you come home and say..."I have more time to spend here with you now". I love you. Have a great day!
Just checking in:>)
As Easter Sunday approaches I'm thinking of lots of things, among them is of course you. And as I continue to study in the NT, and hear the Savior's voice, I can't help but feel His love. I'm so glad we have Pres. Hinckley, because he is a reminder in a small way of how one being can feel love so personally for us all--and have each one of us be able to truly feel that love.
I hope you are able, amidst all your pain, to feel His love for you, and feel His arms around you today.
Loving you.
Phyllis
It's Ok to be sad and mad and angry and cry. You have every right to do that with everything that you are going through. You have made such a big decision to get the best care that you need and have the best medical personnel around....and in spite of what you are going through....you will return home a healthier, happier (and thinner..LOL) daughter of God. You are missed so much here but look to the friends you are making there. You are such a loving and kind person and I know there are many rejoicing there that you are influencing for good. No matter where you go you spread sunshine....that's just you! We are all proud of you for enduring all that you have! You are such a great example!!! So amidst the tears and the pain, I hope you know that there are many of us here praying and fasting for you and missing you and awaiting the moment of your return. You are so loved!!!!!! I hope as Easter approaches that you will rejoice in new beginnings and that miracles will begin to open to you! I love you...Linda
I just want you to know haw much I admire you. I remember about a year ago I was going through a rough time and one Sunday you bore your testimony and mentioned this hymn, Be Still My Soul. It raised my spirits and gave me hope. Your testimony is beacon. I love you and pray for you.
Kaylyn Plumb
Momsick
Although I have lived far away from home for some time now- it is almost like I can feel a difference with you being far away from home...I think about you often Mom. I miss you.
Hello dear...It's been a couple of days since we talked...Billy called in and I got off the phone. Hope it was a good call and that you will see him soon. I'm hoping I can finally send this to you and that you actually get it. I am glad Gary is with you and I hope that Easter was okay with a wonderful Sunday program at church. I know you're in the best possible place at this time Edie..I miss you very much and look forward to your returning home, even if just for a visit. Easter Sunday was an overcast day here except in the late afternoon the sun shone for an hour or so. It is again chilly outside and was raining here this morning and looks like it will be like this all week with more rain this weekend. Would you like me to send you something to read? I am still waiting to hear from Collette Bise...if she doesn't call me tonight, I'll call her. You are constantly in my prayers, I love you and miss you so much. Hang on dearheart, the sun will come out again. Love, Pat
Just thinking of you as I get ready to turn in for the night. I hope your heart is lighter and your body isn't fighting you as hard.
Sleep well. Sweet dreams.
Love,
Phyllis
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