Record of Blessings

I felt the presence of Heavenly Father in my life today...

Sunday, October 07, 2007.

Today was conference and one of the talks was about a woman who had cancer and was dying. Her son asked her a week or so before she died if there was anything she wished she could have or have done. She answered that she wished she could have been of more service. I felt the spirit so strong, as I have wished this since I found out my cancer was back. I feel as though there is so much I have not done to help my fellow man. My health has not been good for years and there is so little I can do, that it just breaks my heart. I just wish I felt better, I would try to do so much more. I do know that the talk was for me, and mirrored my own thoughts.

Monday, October 08, 2007

I worked on my life history today, and that felt good to be doing something that I know I need to do. I felt pretty good all day, but by tonight I was not doing too well. I asked Bob Stroh if he could come and give me a blessing. The blessing was short and sweet, but it did say that I was going to recover from all of this, and to make my family a priority. And I felt my Heavenly Father’s love for me. I know He is with me, watching over my treatments and directing my path.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Yesterday I went to the temple. It was a beautiful day outside, almost got up to 80 degrees. I went with Joell W. to do initiatory work for Gary’s ancestors. I did Stella, grandma’s cousin, and I also did Marguerite, Gary’s mom, and Clarence Ayer’s wives. It was one of the sweetest experiences. I started to cry at the pronouncement of the first blessing. I explained to the sister workers that I was doing family names and that I also had terminal cancer and that was why I was so emotional. They were all so very sweet to me. I hope someday I will feel well enough to work in the temple.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

After waking up about 6:00 AM, I felt pretty punk, so I went back to bed. I could have stayed there all day, so I cried and prayed and went back to sleep. When I woke up a couple of hours later, I just decided that if I was going to have a good day it would be up to me to make it one. I worked on pumpkins that I designed for a table topper for autumn, and then I stained the first coat of stain on two of the six chairs I got at a garage sale a couple of years ago. They match my dining room table and will be really nice for the holidays. I am thankful for prayer and the push Heavenly Father gave me today. I know God answers prayers. Keith stopped by to work on a computer, and it was so nice to spend time with him. I love my kids so much, and they are so good to dad and me.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Somebody…I don’t remember who right now, at General Conference told of how they wrote down how God had touched their lives every day. I have tried to write my feelings down this week. I have missed a couple of days, and things for sure, for I know He is always near and blesses me minute by minute. Yesterday was chemo day. My blood counts were all back up and doing good and I felt so much better…so I had chemo. A wonderful new friend of mine took me out to lunch. I am actually her visiting teacher, but she has taken such wonderful care of me it should be the other way around. We had a wonderful time. She is an artist, and I am hoping that after the first of the year we can paint together. When we got home…wonderful surprise…Bryon and Lorena were here and we went out for Fish at Pryor’s. If you have not had fish at this little hole in the road in Otis Orchard…you have not lived. It is so good.

Before they left to go home, Lorena asked me to have her come over like once a week to help me for a few hours. I think I will take her up on that…especially the weeks after chemo or when I feel rotten. Again, Heavenly Father has blessed me…I have such wonderful daughter-in-laws and a terrific son-in-law. It seems that in this world so many families struggle to even get along. It is the gospel of Jesus Christ that has made all the difference for our family. We are just trying to live the commandments, and though we are not perfect, each person tries to live their lives like the Savior would live His, and it helps all the relationships be so much sweeter. Today we are headed out for Taylor’s football game. I understand he is a great tight end (?), and made a 40 yard touchdown. He also plays defensive lineman and makes phenomenal tackles…especially since he is playing against boys over a year older than he is. It will be a fun day, and I will feel good seeing as how I am on the steroid override right now from chemo.

Okay, so this is my week of blessings…anyway the ones I remembered and wrote down.

Count your blessings…name them one by one. Count your many blessings…see what God has done.

PS HAPPY BIRTHDAY APEY SNAPEY!!!! WE LOVE YOU!!!!!!!